a STEP OUT

11:47 AM

I know it's late and i told u i'd slp early
but i cannot seem to do it. Sorry.
But at least i came home early yeah.=)

Sigh in a real bad dilemma now.
Shit man. I no longer know what to do.
I need to get some load off man.
Missed Mass for 2 weeks.
I dunno. I'm losing it.
my sight. my senses. i'm losing it.
I need to recover. i need to throw things away
and sadly i need to leave some things.

How how can i do that. i don't wanna cause an
uproar of emotions. I sick of it.
If only i could just live in peace forever.
Love peace joy. All i ever want.
But since when in this world may u find that.

I NEED TO SORT EVERY BLOODY THING OUT!
ARGH! Antaeus u're so LOST!!!! so much for containing
my emotions. Sigh. I try my best to put on a happy
face for u all for i know u all have ur own problems
but the mask is getting too heavy to be worn
any longer. I need my relieve. my strength.
shit man. ALL OF YOU just don't know what i am going through
everyone seems to think i am so free and easy
so relaxed
so chilled
BALLS LA. I'm no where near that.
my Freaking schedule is so freaking packed and it's not even
the freaking busy part of the year.I've given up
i need to leave smthing.
BUT what is it?! i cannot Decide. i just don't know.
and if i every leave any of u. Please don't Weep
Just know that i still love u guys.
Thought we no longer walk the same paths.
For everything else. they can wait.

Christie. Thnx for everything. you've been great company lately. thanks.ROCK on.
Larris. i miss chilling man. y nvr watch the show today. it was great man. right jane?
Stones. Sorry i didn't make it.i just hope u all can forgive me.

Love ya.

written, poetic_tragedy

Nama :- Antaeus
Sekolah:- Whitley Sec, Ite Dover
Likes:Floorball,Amplify,Stones,St.Anthony Church, S A Y!,Rugby,The Outdoors Blading, Chilling, Bullshitting, Bassing and all my dear guits And with the love of Music i found life. Dislikes: I don't know. I hate Boredom though i'm 75 percent of the time bored to shit.Yup. oh and i hate ppl who act freaking pityful and like all u know shit ass people who are trying sooo soo hard to pull ya strings but are freaking pissing ya off? yeah THEM! those ones. haha